Today at work II

[Jessica_E_Brown]

3.20 pm - At my desk

As I watch our in-house systems equivalent of the egg timer spinning on my screen,
My eyes wonder to the hair-clips sitting on my keyboard and I smile, they smile back up at me. I chose my underwear very carefully today. A firm cupped/shaped bra. This way there will be no external evidence visible.

I grab the clips and walk off to the loo...I sit down in the cubical and pull my top up, the cold air of the bathroom touches my skin and I free my breasts over my bra. My nipples are already hard with anticipation, my heart is beating fast and I'm short of breath. My breasts are swollen with excitement. I know I’m wet too. I hold a breath, one, two, I close the teeth of the hairclips onto two of the most sensitive parts of my body. A millisecond of calm I breathe out, then…

Searing pain
Like burning
Every time I think I’ve adjusted
It re-ignites into my flesh.

I’m surprised just how normal I can act, as put my breast away and pull my top back into place. I leave the bathroom and return to my desk. I’m so normal; just look how well I can perform my everyday tasks, no one has a clue!
Even though the pain is constant and immense, I make sure it doesn’t show on my face.
Every now and again the pain peaks and I feel like I’m going to die. I bit my lip hard and fight every instinct to put my hands into my bra and stop the pain. Unfortunately I also know, only to well, that it will hurt even more if I do! Deep breath, relax.

I’m on a constant knife-edge, living every second of pain, only ever in the present. I can’t remember any pain in the past. Even though I know I’m in constant agony, when I think to five minuets ago, I’m sure it didn’t even hurt.

Searing pain
Like burning
Every time I think I’ve adjusted
It re-ignites into my flesh.
I’m alive, I’m happy, I hurt.

[Sprayman]

Beautiful - just beautiful!

[Quixote]

I could swoon...

[Dr_BuzzCzar]

Not sure if you read blog's or not but kaya at http://underhishand.com/ has this tack bra that you really might enjoy. She's cool people. From her site - "Tack Bra
I have a bra that is lined with sharp, metal tacks. It's a wonderful torture device for a masochist such as myself. On this day, I'd already been forced to wear the bra for 24 hours, sleeping in it and everything. I was sore, raw and in pain before He even started."

[Sterling7]

Thank you for sharing.  Your pain is very pleasant to contemplate. :)

[Emma]

Thank you for sharing.  Your pain is very pleasant to contemplate. :)

for some reason I just love the way that sounds..  perverted politeness.   

[Sterling7]

"I try so hard to be nice..." -Sid Vicious

[Alebeard]

We will need lewd self pics, you know, for artistic reasons

[tak17]

I’m on a constant knife-edge, living every second of pain, only ever in the present. I can’t remember any pain in the past. Even though I know I’m in constant agony, when I think to five minuets ago, I’m sure it didn’t even hurt.

Searing pain
Like burning
Every time I think I’ve adjusted
It re-ignites into my flesh.
I’m alive, I’m happy, I hurt.

How wonderful. I had not contemplated something like this. I have been more private in my endeavors. (I have tried a clamp on my clit. Incredibly painful in it's own right, much worse when walking around all day for a living!)

[tak17]

Not sure if you read blog's or not but kaya at http://underhishand.com/ has this tack bra that you really might enjoy. She's cool people. From her site - "Tack Bra
I have a bra that is lined with sharp, metal tacks. It's a wonderful torture device for a masochist such as myself. On this day, I'd already been forced to wear the bra for 24 hours, sleeping in it and everything. I was sore, raw and in pain before He even started."

Brilliant! I love this! I also love the spiked paddle. Unfortunately that one would not be so easy to use on myself...but the tack bra...pure genius!

[Quixote]

My heart goes out to the self-hurting girls.

I wish I was there to make them all cry.

[Sprayman]

Quix,

Amen to that! I'd be happy to assist you in your quest.

[Quixote]

It's just so sad, thinking of takici, out there somewhere, with no-one to tie her up and beat and rape her ...

[Sprayman]

It's just so sad, thinking of takici, out there somewhere, with no-one to tie her up and beat and rape her ...

Well - I am visiting her home state next month at the same time I'm visiting Emma and Ale. All she has to do is give me a little better idea of where to look!

[mydarkerside]

It's just so sad, thinking of takici, out there somewhere, with no-one to tie her up and beat and rape her ...

Well - I am visiting her home state next month at the same time I'm visiting Emma and Ale. All she has to do is give me a little better idea of where to look!

Hell, some of us are already here...